Thursday, August 11, 2005
New blog that for now I'm actually tending to...and more public: yay!
Goodbye to the Harmony blog! At least for now.
Goodbye to the Harmony blog! At least for now.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Hi! :o) I am still alive, in case you've doubted. This is just a random blog....thought I'd do something (though very little) with it since I've neglected it for so long.
Happy October 24th! :o)
Happy October 24th! :o)
Sunday, April 18, 2004
I need Jesus
My heart is heavy and broken, and I am oh so confused. I feel things so heavily and it seems that I seldom have a reasonable explanation for the feelings. At times I can identify the trigger, but though it can be identified, it usually doesn't make any apparent sense why this particular thing can set off my emotions and change/affect my whole persona. I need Jesus. That's what it comes down to. So yeah, the past 24ish hours have been a little on the rough side. I feel like a zombie. Last night I wanted to cry, scream, and vomit all at the same time. I in fact only did one of the three, but the "need" to do the others was still the same. Seems a little extreme and intense, if you ask me, for such a vague idea of what it's coming from.
"I need You, Jesus, to come to my rescue. What else can I say? There's no other Name by which I am saved. Capture me with praise; I will follow You."
My heart is heavy and broken, and I am oh so confused. I feel things so heavily and it seems that I seldom have a reasonable explanation for the feelings. At times I can identify the trigger, but though it can be identified, it usually doesn't make any apparent sense why this particular thing can set off my emotions and change/affect my whole persona. I need Jesus. That's what it comes down to. So yeah, the past 24ish hours have been a little on the rough side. I feel like a zombie. Last night I wanted to cry, scream, and vomit all at the same time. I in fact only did one of the three, but the "need" to do the others was still the same. Seems a little extreme and intense, if you ask me, for such a vague idea of what it's coming from.
"I need You, Jesus, to come to my rescue. What else can I say? There's no other Name by which I am saved. Capture me with praise; I will follow You."
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Yes. :o)
Friday, March 12, 2004
Real quick...
Crazy day. Morning consisted of a real brief time with the Lord, interrupted with lights going out, some electrical problem, roommates called fire dept, firemen (sirens and all) came, major problems with our electrical system, fire marshall came, went to ATS, came home after 12, inspecter there, land lady in big trouble. Possibly more later. I am writing from church because our electricity is now off for who knows how long. Exciting day! I'm coming home Sunday! I am looking forward to it, after a week or so of not. Whether it's good or bad, it's all God, and I have to trust Him. And, in faith, I do. Blessed be the name of the Lord! See you in a couple days!
Crazy day. Morning consisted of a real brief time with the Lord, interrupted with lights going out, some electrical problem, roommates called fire dept, firemen (sirens and all) came, major problems with our electrical system, fire marshall came, went to ATS, came home after 12, inspecter there, land lady in big trouble. Possibly more later. I am writing from church because our electricity is now off for who knows how long. Exciting day! I'm coming home Sunday! I am looking forward to it, after a week or so of not. Whether it's good or bad, it's all God, and I have to trust Him. And, in faith, I do. Blessed be the name of the Lord! See you in a couple days!
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Continuing my catch-up on journaling...
Joppa Dream
Alrighty, so....the last catch-up journal entry I did was about Floyd McClung. The next day was Friday, and the beginning of World Mandate weekend. That Friday morning, I woke up urgently praying out loud (though not really out loud, but in my dream...as I woke up...I know, confusing) "Is anyone praying for Joppa, may I intercede for Joppa???!!" It was so so real, and my spirit was so alert and full of a sense of urgency. It continued to roll around in me as long, drawn-out process of waking up played out. When I was actually awake enough to do anything, I turned to look at my poster to the right of my bed of all the world's flags, fully expecting to see a flag for some country named "Joppa." I was shocked and slightly alarmed to see there was no Joppa. I never recalled there being a country named Joppa, but since it was so real in my dream/whatever you want to call it, I figured it must be a country. So my thought then was to do a search online for Joppa. But I had slept too long, and had no time....so I had to run out the door, basically.
As I was sitting waiting for worship to start before ATS, pondering this whole Joppa thing, Ty, the ATS director, came over to me to ask how I was doing. Early on in our conversation I asked, "What's Joppa? Is it anything? A place?" And I proceeded to tell him my "dream." "Yeah," he said, and began to look through the maps in the back of his Bible. I read in the dictionary in the back of my Bible that Joppa was an ancient city on the coast of Palestine...and that helped us find it on his maps. Intriguing. Ty estimated it was...hmm..I can't remember...but some distance away from Jerusalem...100 miles, maybe? Anyway, I had a picture in my mind so that I might possibly be able to figure out what it would be present-day. Later that day I looked up Joppa on biblegateway.com and pulled up all references which included the word Joppa. There were random references throughout the OT as well as NT. A couple examples: it's the city Jonah went to to get on a ship to go to Tarshish when he was disobeying God's direction to go to Nineveh...it's also where Paul raised Dorcus/Tabetha from the dead and was also where Cornelius sent for Paul. Anywho. So then later, while I was lying on my bed, I was looking at my map (to the left of my bed) and the closest thing to Jerusalem was "Tel Aviv-Yofa." So I looked up Tel Aviv-Yofa online, to see if *by chance* (chance, bleh) it could be the present-day Joppa. Well, yeah..it is. I clicked on an encyclopedia article thing, and the first thing I saw was something like, "Tel Aviv-Yofa (or Joppa)" !! Is this not crazy? So the least I can pull from all this is that I need to intercede for Tel Aviv, Israel...if not the entire country. The whole process of investigation was quite fun. Still is, as I don't know how it's going to unfold, if it will any more. Who knows if I'll ever even set foot in Israel...I would like to...but I know it will be on my personal prayer list until God says to do otherwise. God is fun. :)
Joppa Dream
Alrighty, so....the last catch-up journal entry I did was about Floyd McClung. The next day was Friday, and the beginning of World Mandate weekend. That Friday morning, I woke up urgently praying out loud (though not really out loud, but in my dream...as I woke up...I know, confusing) "Is anyone praying for Joppa, may I intercede for Joppa???!!" It was so so real, and my spirit was so alert and full of a sense of urgency. It continued to roll around in me as long, drawn-out process of waking up played out. When I was actually awake enough to do anything, I turned to look at my poster to the right of my bed of all the world's flags, fully expecting to see a flag for some country named "Joppa." I was shocked and slightly alarmed to see there was no Joppa. I never recalled there being a country named Joppa, but since it was so real in my dream/whatever you want to call it, I figured it must be a country. So my thought then was to do a search online for Joppa. But I had slept too long, and had no time....so I had to run out the door, basically.
As I was sitting waiting for worship to start before ATS, pondering this whole Joppa thing, Ty, the ATS director, came over to me to ask how I was doing. Early on in our conversation I asked, "What's Joppa? Is it anything? A place?" And I proceeded to tell him my "dream." "Yeah," he said, and began to look through the maps in the back of his Bible. I read in the dictionary in the back of my Bible that Joppa was an ancient city on the coast of Palestine...and that helped us find it on his maps. Intriguing. Ty estimated it was...hmm..I can't remember...but some distance away from Jerusalem...100 miles, maybe? Anyway, I had a picture in my mind so that I might possibly be able to figure out what it would be present-day. Later that day I looked up Joppa on biblegateway.com and pulled up all references which included the word Joppa. There were random references throughout the OT as well as NT. A couple examples: it's the city Jonah went to to get on a ship to go to Tarshish when he was disobeying God's direction to go to Nineveh...it's also where Paul raised Dorcus/Tabetha from the dead and was also where Cornelius sent for Paul. Anywho. So then later, while I was lying on my bed, I was looking at my map (to the left of my bed) and the closest thing to Jerusalem was "Tel Aviv-Yofa." So I looked up Tel Aviv-Yofa online, to see if *by chance* (chance, bleh) it could be the present-day Joppa. Well, yeah..it is. I clicked on an encyclopedia article thing, and the first thing I saw was something like, "Tel Aviv-Yofa (or Joppa)" !! Is this not crazy? So the least I can pull from all this is that I need to intercede for Tel Aviv, Israel...if not the entire country. The whole process of investigation was quite fun. Still is, as I don't know how it's going to unfold, if it will any more. Who knows if I'll ever even set foot in Israel...I would like to...but I know it will be on my personal prayer list until God says to do otherwise. God is fun. :)
Monday, March 08, 2004
Still no word from H. Hard day.
